Some invaders don’t break doors. They change the furniture.
It began with forgetting.
Not in the mind, but in the body. A slip in rhythm. A weight where there had never been pressure. A bruise that lingered too long, as if the skin had decided to mourn something in silence. You didn’t call it anything, not yet. It was just a pause. A glitch. A breath held slightly longer than usual.
The house was still quiet, but something had moved in.
What if the monster doesn’t roar? What if it waits, polite, in the lining of your cells?
You start closing the windows. Not real ones. The windows of language. You stop saying "I'm fine" with conviction. You avoid the word "tired" because it no longer feels metaphorical. Time folds in strange ways now. Days blur. You sleep, but it doesn’t repair you. There is something inside you spending energy faster than you can make it.
When it finally gets a name, it's almost a relief. There. Now it has shape. Now you know the monster is real, not imagined. It has syllables. A diagnosis. It has a stage. The kind that begins in a routine scan and ends in a word no one wants to say aloud: cancer.
And suddenly, you are the stage.
People use words like strong. Brave. Fighter. But you know better. You are not battling. You are hosting. This thing eats while you starve. It multiplies while you lose hair, blood, softness, time. The worst part isn’t even the illness. It's the way the world insists on your optimism. As if smiling could turn the tide.
There are days it feels less like dying and more like disappearing. You become a quiet version of yourself. Measured in counts, charts, infusions. Your old clothes stop fitting. Not just the fabric, but the identity inside them.
You begin to write, not because you’re a writer, but because something needs to leave your body.
The pages don’t ask for eloquence. They only ask for truth. Or at least, fragments of it. A thought unfinished. A name you’re afraid to say aloud. A date circled not with hope, but with caution. The pen becomes a way to track the days you almost lost.
Some days, you write in the dark. Not because the light is off, but because the mind is dimmed by fatigue. But still, the ink flows. It knows the path, even when you don’t.
Some monsters can’t be defeated. But they can be named. Quietly. Page by page. This leather-bound journal became more than paper. It became permission. To speak. To scream. Or to simply survive. Get it here.
People speak of the hair, the weight, the skin. But they forget the time. The time it takes to become a patient. The hours lost in rooms without windows. The names of nurses that you remember better than birthdays. The way the clock becomes a threat. Or a countdown. Or sometimes, a prayer.
You learn the architecture of waiting. You study the choreography of hallway conversations. You carry the smell of disinfectant in your jacket, long after the hospital visit ends. You memorize the sound of your name called in a tone that doesn’t suggest hope or finality. Just the next.
Is it still you, if the you you knew can no longer walk a block without trembling?
You become your own witness. You see yourself holding on to the armrest during blood draws like it's a cliff. You hear yourself say things like "it came back" or "I'm in remission" like those are ordinary phrases. You learn to count good days like rare birds. To memorize the faces of doctors. To love silence in new ways.
The body forgets. But the mirror remembers.
And one day, between appointments, between pills, between versions of yourself, you look up. And for a flicker of a moment, you see the tree again. The one you planted before any of this began.
It’s still growing.
There is no recovery. Not like people think. There is only reinvention. What comes back is not who you were, but what survived in you.
You learn to bless the small things. The way tea smells. The warmth of socks from the dryer. The softness of someone’s hand who stayed.
You speak more slowly now. Not from weakness, but from weight. There is a gravity to your words. As if every sentence must be earned. As if silence has taught you that not everything needs to be filled.
And when it hurts again, and it will, you prepare. Not with armor, but with memory. Of what you've already survived. Of the parts of you that refused to vanish.
You trace old thoughts into new pages. The ink is slower now. But more honest.
That’s when the journal comes back. Not for drama. Not even for closure. Just for anchoring.
Some pages are empty. Some hold one sentence. Some days you write only the date. But that’s enough. Enough to say: I was here. I still am.
There is no such thing as moving on. There is only moving with.
And sometimes, that movement requires stillness. A ritual. A small weight in your hands. This leather notebook became a map. Not of cure. But of continuation. Find it again, here. On Amazon.
The monster never truly leaves. But it stops being the center.
Sometimes, it simply becomes a shadow.
And you learn to live beside it. Louder.
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